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I know I should win souls, or try to, but honestly, it seems as though I don't care all that much. I'm ungrateful to God. Sometimes I think I don't even believe, or care that He died for me.
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Your statement reminds me of a good sermon I heard once. The pastor said when he was in college that one of his friends came to him and asked to borrow money, and promised he would pay him back the very next week. He was happy to help his buddy and gave him the money.
Next week came around and he couldn't find his friend anywhere. Then on several occasions he saw his friend at school, but his friend took off in the other direction. This went on for several weeks.
Finally, he saw his friend and cornered him. He asked why he was obviously avoiding him. His friend responded that he just knew he was very angry at him for breaking his promise of repaying the money in one week. As each day went by, he became more convinced that his friend was becoming more angry and unhappy with him. He even decided he didn't care, he didn't want him for a friend anyway, and did his best to avoid him.
He slapped his buddy on the back and told him they would always be friends. He realized his friend probably didn't have the money, but that would never affect their friendship. He could repay when he could, if he couldn't, that would be OK too. He loved his friend.
And that is how we are with God sometimes. We get caught up in sin and think God is very angry at us. We become so sure God wants nothing to do with us that we convince ourselves we don't even care, and that we want nothing to do with God.
But God still loves us. Sure, he is unhappy about our sin, but he is waiting for us to come back to him and restore fellowship.
If you sinned (and we all have MANY times), get down on your knees and tell the Lord you are sorry. Start over right then and there and do your best to obey God. He is right there waiting for you to return to him.
