Jassy,
Ahhhh.
Indeed, you are an "elder" sister (not referring to natural years!!) having been a believer since 1987. "Having no biblical construct" for understanding Calvinism vs no eternal security doctrine and dispensations perhaps reads a bit patronizing. I didn't mean it that way, I had mistakenly gotten the impression that the concepts were not resolved in your mind when in fact at issue was only the terminology. I've knocked myself upside the head and I believe I've got it now!!!
