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Old 12-25-2008, 03:30 AM
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Originally Posted by Vendetta Ride View Post
Are you asking me, brother, or illusionznc (who started the thread)? In my case, it's a number of things. But Christ is carrying me, as He has always done.

This may not sit well with all of the members of the forum, but that's for them to worry about: I happen to suffer from major Clinical Depression, and have done so for about 15 years. I am under a doctor's care, and my condition is greatly helped by medication, which corrects the chemical imbalance in my brain. (True Depression is simply the premature re-uptake of seratonin neurotransmitters.) By the ineffable grace of God, my emotional state, my "mood," is not a problem at all; I am cheerfully resting in God's grace. (And He has given me a sense of humor that helps, too!) But Depression has very definite physical symptoms: for example, I currently have no appetite, and have to force myself to eat. (I've lost 15 pounds recently, and my normal weight is only 165 to begin with!) Other symptoms include sleep disorders, what are delicately referred to as "libidinal fluctuations," and other things. The doctors have it under control, and God has the doctors under control! But it's difficult right now, and alienation from several of my grown children makes this season rather hard.

Some Christians distrust any talk of mental illness in the life of a Christian, but that's because God has spared them. Experienced pastors know the reality of such things. I used to think it was all bunk myself, until it hit me. But God doeth all things well: and He chose to give me this, instead of cancer or heart disease. He could have given me kidney stones! Yikes!

That's part of it. Suffice it to say that my signature quote has become my life's verse, and my heart's determination. I appreciate your prayers! Thanks for asking!
You know what Brother?

The Lord works in the most marvelous and mysterious ways in showing us the way, and its by honest posts like this that others can be edified and comforted.
I spent a lot of my younger years involved in the "club scene" which involved a lot of drinking and narcotics, ecstacy mainly, cannabis and various other drugs. The long term effects of this shamefull time for me was depression, I have spent the last 6-7 years finding the correct balance and medication that keeps me on an even keel and until most recently when I tried to stop taking this medication because another brother told me that I shouldnt be on it as a Christian, I spent a month or so in dissorientation, praying to be released from the side effects, praying for strength to overcome the medication, but a few weeks in I just couldnt take the dizziness and the change in my mood any longer and started taking them again. Before I stopped I was feeling happy, I was joyful in the Lord, but after stopping I felt depressed again, sidetracked and not focused on the Lord and It suddenly came to me in Glorious truth, that it IS an illness, It DOES need treated and like any other disease God has used it to STRENGTHEN my faith in his will for me, I shall certainly stop listening to Pious believers who tell me the devil has me on these tablets and start listening to the Lord my Saviour who has me in his care through these tablets as has he any other Brother or Sister who is suffering from depression, or any other Illness. Vendetta Brother God Bless you for your honesty, this post from you has encouraged me in the Lord and made me feel Joyfull again rather than feeling like the medication was some form of bondage.

God Bless you and Yours

Matthew 11:28 the verse that brought me back to the Lord

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

I laboured and still do, and my Lord has certainly Given me rest